Moving through the world unseen

Dying to become

Not who I am

But who I am meant to be

Dreaming of the future

Those confusing things

That cannot be understood

I am fnot who you think I am

Far from your comprehension

Your inagination

Do not try to understand

Everything in my head

Is twisted and sharp

Like broken glass

All that is disturbed

Contradictory

Confusing

Unconforming

That is me

Love

Or hate me

It is your decision

I am myself

I invade your mind

Creating chaos

Spreading the poison

Loving your confusion

Feeding on your pain

Give up my sweet

For you have lost

You never had a chance

But you refused to see the truth

And now I have you

That pain

My body dying

The heart in my chest stopping

Then the thirst

So overwhelming

It consumed my every thought

I could not stop

It could not be quenched

I always lusted for more

He told me to go slowly

Everything would come to me in time

I was impatient

I wanted more

The power was so tempting

He tried to stop me

I ripped his throat out

Drenching myself in his blood

Becoming stronger

This life I see now is terrifyingly lonely

I no longer have someone to share this solitude with

I shed these empty tears

For the life I once had

To dive over the edge

Just end it all

Forget everything around me

Drown away my fears

Strip away my doubts

Not have to worry about anything anymore

Is becoming harder to resist

Every time i gaze across that black-tiled roof

Shadows moving past your eyes

Lights dancing all around

Shimmering

Flashing

Echoes of your past

Haunting your every step

Running

Trying to escape it all

Shivering

Cold

Struggling to forget

I come to make it all better

I will ease your pain

Have no fear

Always perfect and always flawed

Alive and dead

Does that makes sense?

I do not know

I am so confused

Do you enjoy toying with my head

Bending and breaking my heart

Twisting my emotions by the throat

Creating this chaos?

I am slowly gaining a foothold

Soon no longer will i break down

At the thought of your arms around my waist

Do something you’ve never done before, she said

Do something you’ve never thought of before, she said

Do something wild and crazy

Just live a little, she said

So I went out

I guess it wasn’t such a great idea

To play chicken with an eighteen wheller

But i did something I had never done before

Something I had never tohught of before

It was wild

And it was crazy

When I felt the blood pumping in my ears

I knew I was living

I did what you wanted

Now I am dead

Are you happy?

I would hate myself if i did

But to lead you on

Would have been much worse

I am giving up on love

Because it never seems to come my way

If what i felt in the past was real

Then I know the pain

The confusion

Dreaming and thinking and yearning

For only one

Always knowing that it could never work out

All I want is to forget and move on

Never look back

I am giving up on love

Because it never seems to come my way

Crystals from the sky

Freedom singing on little wings

Rays of gold shine down on the fields

The mysterious moon guides us in the night

I look in the mirror

Wondering they see

All I see is a girl

Confused about everything

Wanting so much to just get away

Wishing to understand her purpose

The reason she is alive

Slowly collapsing inside