Blinded by design
Moving through the world unseen
Dying to become
Not who I am
But who I am meant to be
Dreaming of the future
Those confusing things
That cannot be understood
I am fnot who you think I am
Far from your comprehension
Your inagination
Do not try to understand
Everything in my head
Is twisted and sharp
Like broken glass
All that is disturbed
Contradictory
Confusing
Unconforming
That is me
Love
Or hate me
It is your decision
I am myself
Dressed in shadows
I invade your mind
Creating chaos
Spreading the poison
Loving your confusion
Feeding on your pain
Give up my sweet
For you have lost
You never had a chance
But you refused to see the truth
And now I have you
I remember the beginning
That pain
My body dying
The heart in my chest stopping
Then the thirst
So overwhelming
It consumed my every thought
I could not stop
It could not be quenched
I always lusted for more
He told me to go slowly
Everything would come to me in time
I was impatient
I wanted more
The power was so tempting
He tried to stop me
I ripped his throat out
Drenching myself in his blood
Becoming stronger
This life I see now is terrifyingly lonely
I no longer have someone to share this solitude with
I shed these empty tears
For the life I once had
Fighting down this feeling
To dive over the edge
Just end it all
Forget everything around me
Drown away my fears
Strip away my doubts
Not have to worry about anything anymore
Is becoming harder to resist
Every time i gaze across that black-tiled roof
Whispers in the night
Shadows moving past your eyes
Lights dancing all around
Shimmering
Flashing
Echoes of your past
Haunting your every step
Running
Trying to escape it all
Shivering
Cold
Struggling to forget
I come to make it all better
I will ease your pain
Have no fear
I see you now and then
Always perfect and always flawed
Alive and dead
Does that makes sense?
I do not know
I am so confused
Do you enjoy toying with my head
Bending and breaking my heart
Twisting my emotions by the throat
Creating this chaos?
I am slowly gaining a foothold
Soon no longer will i break down
At the thought of your arms around my waist
Loosen up she said
Do something you’ve never done before, she said
Do something you’ve never thought of before, she said
Do something wild and crazy
Just live a little, she said
So I went out
I guess it wasn’t such a great idea
To play chicken with an eighteen wheller
But i did something I had never done before
Something I had never tohught of before
It was wild
And it was crazy
When I felt the blood pumping in my ears
I knew I was living
I did what you wanted
Now I am dead
Are you happy?
I didn’t want to hurt you
I would hate myself if i did
But to lead you on
Would have been much worse
I am giving up on love
Because it never seems to come my way
If what i felt in the past was real
Then I know the pain
The confusion
Dreaming and thinking and yearning
For only one
Always knowing that it could never work out
All I want is to forget and move on
Never look back
I am giving up on love
Because it never seems to come my way
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